The Jackpot

I'm in the middle of uncertainty, no progress (noticeable from outside) and at the bottom floor of a new undertaking. And I'm celebrating! This is it, right now, the thing I've always wanted. I'm in the flow of developing something, no idea who will like it or whether it will be big or not, and I feel so successful. This moment of pulling together my ideas is the prize. And when I’m ready to market and share my project, that will be the bonanza, too. My gold at the end of the rainbow has got to be in what I'm doing now or I'll never have it. 

I'm not terrific at seeing the jackpot during the creative-incubation-stage (where I'm lying on the couch with no ideas,) at least while I'm in it. But I see afterwards that loafing is a type of surrender that leads to a spurt of energy and motivation later. It's all worth celebrating.

If I’m thinking that my rewards are in the future (and that I might not be capable of getting them) I have some perspective re-wiring to attend to. I’ve had to attend to so much of this that I see even (the often painful act of) self-inquiry as rewarding. (I really do.)

I'm still eager to see where my project goes, have aspirations and future ideas, and that's part of the fun. 

Where does it ends up? It never ends up! There’s no spot in time where we lay our cards down and say here it is: The results. It will always keep changing. So each step had better be a reward.

Can you celebrate the jackpot that is today? Or do you need some perspective re-wiring?